Zatarras Vengeance

Well there have been some major events pass the last couple of weeks, there was firstly the massive house party which was the celebration of Anthony and Matts 22nd b'day, it was ridiculously good, had a live band (inside the house) a couple of DJ's a few different singers and few guys putting down some rhymes, was a fantastic night, appart from the lack of decent aged ladies,but all in all was a great night. Saturday past had Matt's surprise bday, was a little kinda cute affair with sally organising her closest mates to join in on the surprise, which made it cozy and a enjoyable time. Highlight of the night had to be when Matty had a bit of green for dessert and for some profound reason, decided that there was a yellow man in our presence and was laughing his head off, bizzarre yet amusing, was a big night for a small gathering, with the last soldiers heading to bed around 6.30. Sunday night Lize and Smelz came round to join in some sunday banter, andrews cooking, some light dancing, some play acting and photo taking. For me highlight of the night was when Andj pulls out the collection of Albums to show to Lize, was definitely a very intriguingly funny thing. Oh then whipping on some bee gees hahaha that was awesome. Monday night well well, let me just say it was interesting to say the least, ended up having to wake up andrew and rushing down to dandy bball stadium for there semi final, the story goes, his team was up by a fair bit so the other team was getting a bit ruff, and some dude out of nowhere starts throwing punches at Andrew and out of character my mind just went fuck this and ran onto the court doing some crazy ass jummping flying punch thing into that guy who hit Andrew, then pretty much was on for young and old, about 4 of there blokes came charging at me and im like shit!! some old dude threw a punch and i tried to duck but unfortunately i was a bit slow and it cracked me right on the top of the head. Didnt hurt at the time but later on i had this lump on my head and everytime i frowned it stung. Anyways once it all got broken up, one of the referees grabs me and goes "i saw you king hit that guy, thats assault" im like what the, anyways they made me wait for the blue boys to come down and basically asked me a few questions took my details down, but at some stage of that i was quietly shitting myself thinking of the ramifications. One of the dudes that plays in Andrews team is my cousins husband who in fact works at dandy cop shop, he reckons nothing will come of it. So all in all its been an exciting last few weeks, and i think it may continue this weekend with Lisa's bday.

PS.. Elly its about time you change your password as honoured as i am!!!

in the circuit, the frequency's breaking up. the speakers can barely move this is not a test tune to the broadcast. witness the jetlag. look in the mirror. adjust the V-hold shatter the lens. pull out the shards. choke on her words, caught in her throat. how long can the wheels maintain a spin, at this velocity? on every block, a reminder: you can't stop this intersection. at every turn, dead forests of tenements rise like antennas. the miles are adding up and the days are counting down. cut the jet black from my hair before we're bathed in the dawn of New Year's Day. I will change back to myself in the flame, we burn like the paper hearts of dead presidents. we're too lost, to lose hope. maybe the night seems so dark because the day is much too bright for us to see that we are cured. (shatter the lens. pull out the shards). we are cured (choke on her words, caught in your throat). that's the sound of music from another room the piano player hangs from piano wire but the player piano carries on. sit back and tune to the broadcast. this is not a test shatter the lens. pull out the shards. choke on her words, caught in your throat. as the language dissolves and the setence lifts, a slow alphabet of rain is whispering, "aabcttipacbdefg..." since I replaced the I in live with an O, I can't remember who you are... ...but tomorrow I'll be you. just pick up the phone. I'm calling from your house, in your room, in your name, lying in your bed, following your dreams. I listen to your voice get caught in my throat as I sing, "This Is Just A Dream." on New Year's Day, we will change back to ourselves. in the flame we are cured. we are cured. we are cured.

I hate it when i have a self made long weekend and it goes quicker than a regular 2 day weekend, anyways didnt go to work on Friday because i had one of those moments where i guess i didnt really think out the ramifications of power drinking the night before would really effect me the next day, speaking of thursday night i cant believe i lined up up to get into the Bez pub for around 40 mins, that shit was ridiculous, wasnt even worth it, a bunch of little girls and boys, while me the old goose was bundling around like a drunkin bafoon. Friday did pretty good on poker night, had a good crowd of 9 at one stage, ive come to realise i love how the adrenalin pumps real good when you put in a massive bet and someone calls you for a bit of a showdown, its awesome. Saturday had dinner at Bree's house which was a real nice night to be honest really wasnt expecting anything out of it and we all had a jolly time, Matt bought these prawn cracker things from across the road which tasted like nothing id ever consumed before in my life, but for some reason was drawn to eating them even though i didnt really like the flavour, bizarre. After andrew met me at Sallys house and we made our way over to Mint, it really is no where as good if your not smashed, but it was good to be out and about rather than doing jack at home... we got home at about 4 but we continued to have a chat and didnt end up getting to bed till about 6, was the latest this old man has been up in ages!! Sunday kinda bummed around and had these three biatches come round to i guess hang, watch a bit of idol and visit the greener pastures... was fun all round weekend... goes to quick... now i cant wait for this duel bday this friday which supposedly is some big even with bands, dj's, live performances and stuff, should be real interesting... cant wait

Its been a long week, with pretty much my biggest drinking patch in a long time, went to the Prom last Tuesday to Thursday for this team building exercise thing for work, it was actually pretty cool did heaps of walks, even one up to the top of Mt Overon which was awesome, i mean 4km's of straight up hill was full on!! but the feeling when you get up the top was great and you could just see how beautiful the landscape was, i was a bit nervous up there being scared of heights, but it was so refreshing. Each night i had more than a few bevvies but it was great. Now to Friday night, this fundraiser gala ball for the Reach foundation, a good cause and a great night, was on the wines which makes me a little loopy got in heaps of dancing and mingling, i took Nigey as my bitch for the night and he had a great time to, and to learn of what that total cow has decided let out and to the wrong people (i assume on purpose, so the message gets back), but pffft what an absolute toss, and Lize if you think that person is so into themselves, i havent ever met such a self involved, selfish person, im glad i know this now, id had of hated to be in a situation involving someone like that... it was even better as the night went on where i was messaging her like me and nige were gonna meet up, but ha ha i never was, i can tell she is pissed off, and good f' her. Later on we went up to some of the guys from works hotel room kept on drinking, i think Nige fell in love with one of the ladies from work, hes like if my wife looks like when shes 47 id be over the moon. So we decided to go home but make a pit stop at Fitzroy st coz Nige wanted a Souvo, so we are walking down the street with a whole bunch of shit we stoll from Josies Hamper that she won, i think it was a few just juices and some maple syrup, so i had no change and there were a few homeless people floating around, so i decided to donate the just juices away with the theme of the night, it was kinda funny at the time. Saturday i felt like crap and made it late to my brothers gf's bday lunch, well basically when they were paying the bill, later on we went out to this club called Mint, where andrews brother dj's at was pretty cool, met a few people, a few ladies to, hmmmm i hope i bump into one of those again... and yesterday was rest day...

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Its been an interesting last few days, went to Barry's for a great shot of 80's for Helens bday on friday night, and i think i have discovered that 2 weeks straight of 80s clubs is a bit to much, definitely needs a few weeks break in between. Its great goin to the G to go watch your team get flogged by 1000000 points, oh the pain, and to think its the first game ive ever gone to with my old man, poor bastard i think he nearly had an embalism, even worse he had to conceal his frustration as where we were sitting we were nestled between basically half the tigers injured list, with Kellaway and Coughlan and the likes lurking he controlled himself, it was pretty funny actually. Sunday arvo was interesting, ended up playing a lazy afternoon of dominos with my uncles and dad, they crack me up those old dudes, it is honestly something you see from a movie a bunch of old dudes talking shit that they honestly think is funny, yet i sit there thinking, "man do you know how stupid that sounded" yet i still crack up because in the moment it is quite hilarious. Will be heading off to Wilsons prom for 3 days with work, its gonna be friggin cold, as one of the girls just said to me, feels like we are going on school camp!!! off we go!!

What a week it has been and well weekend past. The weekend was taken up pretty much by the ventures for Sallys 30th bday, it was a real great night, starting off with dinner at the Portland Hotel, then the comedy club, and then off to Club Retro, which again is one of those as the name suggests 80s stlye club, but to be honest i was expecting more from the music, i mean there is a point where retro becomes un-dancable, a bit of "sweet home alabama" surely fits into that category, but really after a few johnnys on the rocks you really dont pay any attention to it what so ever. By nights end, friends drifted off their own ways, some even didnt say bye, and have now been labelled the "Lasher" typically in form that person was Nige. Anyways there was me, sally and matt and one of sallys mate bec, left by the end so we all caught a cab to sallys house, and Bec jumps in the front seat, decides to rummage through the cabbies cd collection and demanded certains cd's get played it was heaps funny, so we get home and i turn into old grampa jack on the couch, trying to stay awake amid a bit of a hot girl in the midst, but no i had to start doing the fall asleep wake up mid convos and try and give my 2 cents, i was way off, so then good ole matty had to take uncle jack to bed. I thought id wake up to a lovely sight next to me, but to my dissapointmet, a taxi home had happened. So then me and salsta in the morning had the biggest chin wag of all time, we really learnt heaps from each other, and well she has really noticed a difference in me which is great, she said previous to the revitalisation, it just seemed i was just angry at everything, she may have had a point. It is a very humbling experience what ive gone through and im so glad ive done it..

Its simple, be better to yourself, be better to others, and never be afraid to say what you really feel, just in the right way...

Hey does anyone have a good remedy for rage.... i think my mental rage is about to come pooring out on this poor fuck at work, you know i almost ticked today, i hate it when you achieve something good and well, for me at this stage is the whole health kick and someone makes a joke out of it to bring you down, guess who?? filthy fucking curry

Instead of smashing his teeth in, i visualised it, you know it wasnt as good but it was relieving.

On another note manipulative deceitful bitch has joined forces with curry and this has made life so hard at work... i stick to my own click... its funny i was telling my boss how its making me feel, and hes like dont bother with it mate, your better than that and there is no point in doing something that could jeopardise your career, and yeah hes right, Ricc is a good man im glad i work for such a good guy..

Sallys 30th on Saturday, one of those long events where its dinner at some pub in the city then the comedy club and then off to wherever after that, ive decided not to drink to continue on my might ways so i hope i can get into the groove being the only sober person there, im sure i can manage..

You know what gets on my nerves, people who constantly brag about money and materialism. There is this one guy at work who is driving me insane, all he does is have a comment about everything, whether it be shit, what its worth, braggin about what this and that cost... all i have to say to you shit lips... shut your fucking hole you filthy fucking curried peacocked haired nob jockey... on a brighter note its crack me up to read back on old entries you realised how much shit you can actually talk.. its been ages...

Now let me just say... what a fool i am to only have started watching the great show now... im actually getting anxious that i will run out of episodes to watch soon... im into 4th season now and well its just gets better... anyways yeah i thought id say that even though i may have touched on it previously...

In so many ways i know how proud a country Australia is... the past few days of basically sitting on my ass and doing nothing i now know why we are such a proud country.... I look over the tragic events which have taken place over Asia in the Tsunami crisis and how many people have died and how many have been left homeless with out family... its a very sad sight to see and my heart pours out to those who are effected... on the other hand i see how we as a nation have bounded together to help these people... as a nation it was tallied per capita we have donated the most out of any countries around the world.. people must remember at a measily 19-20 million population we are by far a power house country... but we always do our best to give the most we can... for example in 2.5 hours as a country we raised 20 millions dollars from 1 concert, from a fundraising spectacular we had the best of world cricket battle it out to raise antoher 10 or so million dollars.. it amazes me what we have done as a country not only in donations but also in regards to reaching out and getting over there with medical staff, military, and how ever else... I stand here to say and proclaim that I am very proud and honoured to call my self Australian.

Damn those 2 days went for ever... ive almost completed watching all of Sopranos Season 3 and well it started off shite but now has progressed quite well... i dont know why i havent watched this from when it first came out but fuck it is so good.... now its like watching a reallll long movie without and end though which is weird... anyways my first week of the fat bastard challenge is complete... 11 weeks to go the challenge ahead is great but will be done... just imagine this as a do or die thing that if you fail well you die but if you dont well then im a big winnner.. can i say how much better my stomach has been though its all cleansed im now farting perfume style its lovely... people around me are thankful.. one draw back to this healthy eating is that its not cheap... all these veggies and fruits shit!!! but well i guess its part of the deal... anyways eliza showed me how to throw in photos which i think she ripped off some other peeps but well in her honour i give you this...

Well let me just say pleasantly suprised by the Saturday Night Fever Musical... never seen the movie dont really intend to but hey that was some good shit... i mean i wouldnt do it all the time but i think its good to catch once in a while... amazed actually by how they can dance like that and keep up the vocal stylings its pretty phenominal actually...

On a more sour note this evening was kindly paid for by my great company and well included before hand was a 4 course meal... and well let me just say with everyone else scoffin round me i just couldnt resist.. bad man... bad bad bad... i feel bad... ive only cheated myself but fuck what am i supposed to do... not eat??? anyways yeah thats that... will just have to work a little harder tomorrow..

Still to buy my hatebreed tickets still mulling actually over it... i dunno ill most defintely be goin... also i have to mention my house mate andrew is actin kinda weird/funny of late... i think somethings up but i asked and he didnt say anything... only time will tell

Not much to update on the past few days i have just been trying to keep away from place which will tempt my very tempted stomach to eat some nasty food... on a lighter and gayer note... i will be venturing off to saturday night fever the stage show tomorrow night... inclusive of a meal.. courtesy of nestle.. also part of this venture is a winer tour early feb... should be good for a laugh i guess...

By the way still going strong.... havent lost track at all... wait till next week i guess

Yes day one has passed and im happy to say with out any hiccups... i ate in accordance with the plan i have set out.... had my suppliments... and went for 30 mins on the bike to start off with and then did some aerobic style gym session... only 83 days to go...

Roses are red, violets are blue
Theres only one thing i want in life
To get a fucking clue

thank you

fuck man whats goin on, im fucked

Watch the sky for me, watch the night I'll be there for you in starlight as your feet touch the ground, I'll be floating along watch th sky for me tonight, just as every moment leads you to the past, just as everything has gone I'm the one you need to know that there is someone else just as this is now goodbye.

The heart is a mysterious organ.

It plays by its own rules.

Bye!

Im all bruised and battered, and wanted to go out but to nackeraged to get past the, social must, of someones birthday, got over that hill and have now retreated home. I wish i was in better spirits as i wanted to further my destinty to a later location, i almost mustered the effort up, but everyone i seem to call was not answering, hmmmm i wonder what that says about my number. Who knows anyways back home now, gona watch the end of that long ass movie JFK.

Word of warning to you all, if you havent played skirmish before, the fuckers kinda hurt when they hit ya, but its mad fun. I wanna go again, but if works not paying for it im guessing it wouldnt be too cheap.

PS. In a weird and confused mood, contemplating life to much at the moment, this is what long drives alone does to you. I recommend the music you are listening to be up beat or angry, and not slow and full of meaning, it fucks with you rmind.